Post-travel and Mid-Recuperation

So I travelled to the beautiful island of Mauritius – a country that makes up half of my genetics. I gained a lot of clarity while I was there. I hope to draw about that in the future!

trou aux cerfs mauritius volcano volcanic crater covered in trees and other greenery in a lush tropical island setting
The mysterious Trou Aux Cerfs – inactive volcanic crater.

I did draw while I was there, but there aren’t many pictures that I can share with you here. This is because I took on a small project. I asked people to send me stories from their life, and I would draw something abstract based on whatever they sent me. These were highly personal stories and I was touched that anyone gave me anything to draw. I hope to do another project like that in the future.

For the time being, here are some doodles I managed to do for myself over my travels. I’m sorry for photos! My scanner is currently not working.

I have a lot going on this year, including working on my first book among other–highly important–things. I do, however, intend to continue my drawing journey and posting here for whoever may find me.

Raw doodle

abstract pencil drawing of eye crying tears that turn into spiky abstractions and black tears; mehendi influence

Excuse me for the messiness of this pencil doodle and the difference in quality. I do not have a scanner where I am right now. It’s all part of what I am trying to portray, although it doesn’t quite seem professional. This was drawn in an emotional state and I wished to capture that.

Because of my general affect, it’s hard to see strong emotions from me. I naturally have a resting stone face and what looks like an easygoing demeanor. But inside I feel and think way too much. That’s why movies, books and songs can make me cry really easily. That’s also why some people question my ability to understand, or my intelligence. Believe me, I understand what’s going on. I am merely unable to react until it becomes an explosion. 

When I draw or doodle, I am desperately trying to show the things that I find difficult to emote. Here I am trying to show the effect even one hypercritical sentence can have on me.

To everyone who has trouble showing how they feel to others, I truly feel for you and send you all of the love that is kept from you as a result of how others misunderstand you. I understand you and I care about you.

Grayscale Universe

Abstract drawing in black coloured pencil with 4 kite-like abstract forms flying in a column over a black planet-like dome
Grayscale Universe

My art is a victim of my tendency to rush. This artwork is an example of that. I am very happy with the composition and content, but I can see where taking my time would have made the gradient, lines, and shapes more of what I wanted them to be.

But honestly, I love this piece even with its imperfections. It was such an accomplishment once it felt finished. It’s a hopeful, loving, peaceful depiction of the universe. Between you and me, reader, I’m not the best at depicting the world as…positive. I see things I love about it, but I’m too nihilistic in general. This artwork reflects what good I do see.

I chose grayscale because I only wanted to use one coloured pencil and thought black–since it is sometimes explained as absorbing all colours*–was a good choice. I hope you think so too!

*I did my reading! Check out this link I found handy when I looked up, without shame, “is it true black absorbs all colours” 😉